Basically done!

The edit has taken an excessive amount of labor over the last couple days and it is finally done!(enough) I would have enjoyed some more time with it, of course, but the customer is plenty happy and I think it should do just fine. Now.... I sleep.

Survivor's remorse.

I've never heard this term before today. I've also never needed to hear it before today since I've never been in this situation before. It is the term to describe the feeling I have after being one of the few who somehow made it through the huge wave of lay-offs at my new job. It seems strange considering how new I am and how long many of the people who were laid-off had worked there... but I do consider myself quite lucky anyway despite my generally crappy feeling that so many of the good people I was working with are no longer employed along side me as they once were only days ago... day ago. Now I suppose I just gotta move on and make the positive difference I am being kept around to make. Before, when I was the newest, least useful one of many, I was quite dispensable... now, as one of the few remaining, I am quite important... well... it kinda feels that way, anyway. I might just be the least expensive. Ha. Either way, I  gotta do my part with gusto!

Certain challenges unexpected.

I can't say much right now(as I do not formally know very many details) but I am quite sad by what I expect to happen over the next day or so at work. It is a tremendous and unexpected change, to say the least, and I really don't see very far into the future with very much clarity at all because of it. More details to come.

Very impressive display of awesomeness!

I quite enjoyed the portfolio review of the next graduating class of my old school. They were all excellent, inspiring presentations to behold! I really look forward to seeing their excellent futures unfold and especially how they weave into my own future along the way. Cool stuff!

Progress in the edit bay.

Though I am not sure 'in' would best describe the use of my laptop just about anywhere. The world is my edit bay. Whatever. Anyway, I feel like I am wrapping up to something pretty decent here soon and I look forward to seeing a reasonable result that I might even be proud of. Now I just gotta actually make it happen.

A new week, a new way.

But mostly because there's lots to be found on the horizon of life... not for any significant or particularly meaningful reason. I'm just tired. Lots to do, though. Lots to do!

Still adjusting.

So, I remembered my dream the other day and it was one of the first ones I had remembered very clearly in a quite a while. It was a strange zombie dream(only my second one) which, after describing it to my bandmates, gained a little clarity from the insight offered me by them. Basically, and in a very non-extensive explanation, I was a zombie when I worked at UPS. Weird that my mind made a dream out of that metaphor. There's a lot more to it but I thought it was funny... and sad... and weird. Now, I get to become something different altogether. I hope it's a good kind of different.

Basketball is painfully delicious.

To the body, that is. All kinds of fun while playing AND I know I will enjoy the after effects over the next couple or so days, too. Ha. I hope I am able to lose some weight in the process! Get my metabolism going again. That would be nice.

Exploring work possibilities.

I suppose I never really thought about all the ways I might be able to contribute to my new position. I have a wide variety of experiences under my belt and many of them could potentially be useful. I guess I mostly didn't think of that stuff because I mostly wanted to promote my skill set more obviously related... I am glad for the opportunity to explore those other areas, though. Should make my job that much more fulfilling.

1 minute after my normal wake-up call.

But now, it will likely become my normal sleep-down call. And I don't really mind that much. And I am totally looking forward to my body finding it's normal rhythm again. Today was a bit tougher than I expected it to be.

Kinda gettin' back to it.

It will probably take a little while(I am not really sure how long) before I become acclimated to my new sleeping schedule. It is immensely valuable to me, though, and I am certainly looking forward to it. I think it'll help me reclaim a lot of my former, hopefully positive, pieces of my life.

Work a bazillion hours.

Which I suppose is pretty much exactly what I always wanted to do. Except doing it on more than two hours of sleep would be a much better scenario. Of course, that might imply the use of brain power in said work... which is a standard that isn't always the funnest to observe. Ha.

Counting down the working days at UPS.

T-minus 4 days and counting... to the return of a normal sleeping schedule. Boom! It is one of the greatest parts of life that I have overlooked the importance of for far too long. Just a feeling of normality once in a while would be nice. Now, I expect I will get to feel it quite commonly once again!

Anticipating the wonderful world of sleep.

I have been so reckless with my sleeping habits lately that I have a lot to look forward to once my time with UPS has come to an end. I am thoroughly jazzed about sleeping in more than once a week. My work habits will improve, also. Or at least they should improve. All good things. So many good things. Nice!

Positive mental energy.

It really changes the way life happens to you. The actual events might not be any different in any real, physical way but perception definitely changes how we act as we go through things. It would be really good to practice, and improve, the habit of utilizing positive mental energy to make life better. It really is something one can decide to do both before and after the events of life might influence us. What a blessing it is to simply have such a choice!

Asked to leave... or fired?

I definitely had a rough day at work today but I did make it through to tomorrow. I have a boss that I don't think realizes how to deal with stress and ends up taking it out on the people in his direct line of authority. I also think that because I have a will of my own that he is somewhat threatened by it and just wants to replace me with somebody who is easier to sculpt into his own image. It is pretty frustrating. I hope he gets some guidance/course correction before he creates too many more problems.

Finally got the internet back!

It took quite a few impatient days(as it would be fairly easy to notice, according to the large gap in my entry dates) but it was a somewhat revelatory experience, as well. I have entrenched myself into the internet society quite a bit more than I thought. I knew it was deep... just how deep, though... that's the annoying part. But I survived. And so did the internet. It always does. Now I'm back on board. And now it's time to just move forward. No need to dwell on the deeper implications now. Ha.