New people freshen the optimism.

I know I can't always make it up to the Bellevue area to hang with the new crowd of folks we have begun to meet up there but it definitely feels good to be connecting with some new, totally rad people for the first time in a while. Not that any of the people from my area have not filled that 'totally rad' gap in my life, quite the opposite, but that I have been simply needing a new change of pace with a new landscape of scenery. It's the traveler's wanderlust I have been suppressing for so many years, I guess.

Hot days and the illness.

I think I have been suffering from a minor, yet persistent, cold over the past couple or so days and I have to say it has really made me quite exhausted. Combine that with the somewhat overbearing heat of the day and I am pretty much flat on my back... though I guess it's a little more metaphoric than real. Ha. Either way is fine to express my point, I guess!

Sluggish attitude.

Probably one of the more annoying casualties of the poor sleeping habits would be the positive attitude for things I am normally optimistic and hopeful about. Just feeling tired makes my attitude feel tired too, I guess.

The day was pretty good, though, despite my less-than-chipper demeanor at the moment. I am really gonna sleep hard tonight and it's gonna feel great. After work tomorrow morning I'll happily resume where I left off before work. Ha.

Makin' it quick!

My computer is totally on the fritz(sp?) today and until I can get the battery replaced I am not even sure how long it will be working at the moment... it could unexpectedly reset itself any moment and continue doing it to the point that I might not even be able to finish this entry.

Anyway, this whole computer reset thing has wiped out my whole life for reals! I have homework and regular work that I wanted to get done today but literally could not do pretty much anything since the computer just had to sit there off for most of the day. It reminded me how fragile my existence is since much of what I do is totally connected to this tiny little device. Ha. Ugh.

I could have been more productive in other ways, to be fair, but I really look forward to getting a replacement battery for this thing soon!

Some ideas about assumption.

I have been thinking about the myriad of reasons I am rejected by women over the past several years and there is a common idea that seems to come up a lot... that would be the idea that I think that girls assume too many things about me before really getting to know me or do any of their own research into who I really am. I say I think because this is really mostly an assumption on my part as well so I am equally responsible for the blame since I don't really know why I am always rejected by the lady folk. They almost never respond with their words, only with their actions... which seem to speak somewhat clearly enough. Ha.

Anyway, I would like to create a full-length, yet ever evolving, disclaimer about the things one should not assume about me(most of which I tend to think are most applicable to the girls and dating situation) in order to help people understand me better. I don't know if it could ever have any positive impact on my dating life(which almost seems like it is actually dead... or undead?.. like a zombie? Is my dating life a zombie dating life? weird.) but I feel it can have some sort of positive life benefits anyway. One might be a better understanding of myself as I attempt to describe the way I think people perceive me and the way I hope I am perceived. A self-inspection never hurts in general for that reason, I would say.

Since I do not have the time to get things started tonight I will have to start working on it another time. But, I WILL work on it soon for sure. I am quite motivated. Probably motivated for reasons that won't bear any significant fruit(namely, the feelings I have for a girl that seems to have given me the boot) but I don't think that is really a bad reason either. Motivation is motivation and anywhere you can find it is probably not a particularly bad thing(there has to be a boat-load of flaws with that logic. ha).

The long and boring daze.

Sometimes I have too much time even though I don't really have any in the first place. Today was one such day. I could have gotten so much done toward the improvement of my life... but I did more standing still than anything else today... which is essentially the equivalent of moving backwards, in reality. How disappointing. Let's not make a habit of this, shall we?(any more than it already is, anyway)

So, tomorrow will be a day I get things done. That should be a nice break in the non-action. Ha.

Still some possibilities.

I don't really know where anything goes for me from here but it seems to be closer to something I can get behind now that my attitude is a little less of a baditude. This weekend has opened my eyes to the fact that I can look in many different places for a future if I am willing to put in a little effort. It is all a very unusual sort of idea for me even though it's probably pretty normal for most people.

Anyway, I think life is still getting better so I can be pretty down with that. I never really thought much otherwise anyway but the thought hasn't been as clearly positive as it has been lately.