Exploring the complex identity challenges.

Today's interview was an interesting experience. There were many ideas discussed that I had not really thought much about before today. Maybe my world-view is somewhat limited but I don't think that necessarily minimizes my perspective of complex identity challenges. I am a human, after all. I have learned a thing or two about identity through my own experiences... especially today. Ha.

Almost enough prep for this one.

I didn't quite bring all the gear I should have but we'll make due just fine. I have everything setup and ready to go(outside of a few small technical details) and look forward to my first experience as the "A Shooter" tomorrow. I need to perform as well as possible but I do feel up for the task. Plus I'm actually getting to sleep at a decent time for once! Pillowboom!

Artistic progress.

It is a strange, generally indiscernible process. But I think I could have noticed a glimpse of it today after reviewing the initial fruit of our labors. I know that every sample of one's art is a genuinely unique experience for said artist, which similarly reflects the fickle reliability in assessing observed improvements, but it does tend to feel somehow qualified in this case. Repeatability will be its true test of quality. And that's assuming I actually finish this project in pace with its currently higher-than-usual standard. Ha. Oh, how easy it is to get ahead of myself!

No more days of preparation remain.

Now, only a couple hours in the morning are available if I wake up and get going when planned. It is yet another moment of truth... a test of vision and perspective. I look forward to the challenge!

Never enough prep time.

Or maybe there's always enough prep time combined with learning from mistakes. It usually gets kind of a bad rap but only because of the pain of it, I'd say. It seems universally acceptable to learn in pretty much any situation... I just prefer to prep more and avoid them whenever possible.

The fun challenge of shooting professional sports.

I have never had the opportunity to do so until tonight. Sure, it wasn't top level professional but minor league is still professional and the guys out there on the soccer field were definitely professional-level athletes. It was fun to watch, incredibly challenging to shoot, and a great learning experience all balled into one. I hope I get another opportunity to shoot sports again in the future. Higher level would be even more exciting, I expect.

Working non-stop forever.

Which is basically the truth. Even when you're not getting paid to be doing things for an employer or client you still have the work of living to participate in. Sure, it doesn't always mean that strenuous effort is occurring but if you aren't paying attention and thoughtfully navigating the mundane and more relaxing moments in life you might end up paying for it later with an increase in the other types of work. So, really, you can decide to take a break from the work of life... but be careful that you don't let it crash into the stuff that makes relaxing possible. A yin and yang of sorts, I suppose.