Nothing like a little winter cleaning.

Current mood: satisfied

This is a somewhat unusual occasion for me. To decide I am going to do some cleaning and actually get most of it done. This typically does not happen because I am so easily distracted by the smallest things. Plus... I often make my plans in the wrong way to begin with.

I have been pondering the concept of decision versus the concept of desire for the last couple of days. It is almost always the case that my desire is fairly high to do just about anything which needs doing. The concept of decision is the necessary component added to desire which makes anything happen. That is the fairly simple explanation of it. And my simple fault with the whole process is that I usually assume that I will be naturally compelled to do that which I desire. It is true that it will, and does, happen that way every once in a while but only usually because of outside influences. So where was the decision made? When I decided to allow something else make up my mind for me... which is an extremely easy thing for me to do since I actually enjoy serving others. This is, however, detrimental to my personal progression when my outside influences are not in line with my own personal goals, which invariably they tend not to be. Plus it is somewhat weak-willed if I am putting my decision making into the hands of anything other than myself. Non of this precludes the need for good influence, nor does it discount the need for guidance, both of which are vitally important.

So I desire to do good things. I decide to do specific things among the multitude of choices in order to create a positive path reflecting my desire. I make adjustments to both my desire and decisions, based on the experience gained of good and bad judgement relating to both, and the guidance and positive influence of things aligned with my goals. Ultimately I must continue to make decisions, though, because they are crucially integrated into the whole process. I mostly say this for me. I need to remind myself of this more often. It is not, nor was it ever intended to be, an easy thing. How awesome is that?!

I am grateful I get to do some of the things I plan to do every once in a while. Sorry again... I did not set up my recording stuff. I will do it next time... You'll see.