Incarnations of the Elusive

Current mood: inspired

I have always wanted to be ________.(fill in the blank)

Some personal examples:

I have always wanted to be able to dunk a basketball with two hands.

I have always wanted to be able to proficiently play guitar and sing at the same time.

I have always wanted to be good at reading books.

I have always wanted to be a morning person(my favorite time of the day.)

I have always wanted to be in good physical shape.

I have always wanted to be able to open my mouth when I know I should(not just to eat food.)

I have always wanted to be the best friend I can be.

I have always wanted to be a totally honest and clear communicator.

I have always wanted to be a good example to others.

I have always wanted to be trustworthy of all people.

I have always wanted to be diligently creative.

I have always wanted to be like my friends, but unique from them.

I have always wanted to be good at schoolwork.

I have always wanted to be poetic in my expression.

I have always wanted to be able to read people well and understand their needs.

I have always wanted to be a good brother to my siblings.

I have always wanted to be totally capable of cheering anybody up.

I have always wanted to be one who does not care about money(whether I have it or not.)

I have always wanted to be in control of my direction in life.

I have always wanted to be well-known of all people(for reasons of clarity.)

I have always wanted to be accurate and precise in all endeavors.

I have always wanted to be a very fast typist.

I have always wanted to be able to see both sides of all equations.

I have always wanted to be loved.

I have always wanted to be a righteous leader.

I have always wanted to be a singer.

I have always wanted to be good at sight-reading piano music.

I have always wanted to be better at coping with other people in physical pain(I don't like, but totally appreciate the doings of what those in the medical profession do.)

I have always wanted to be extremely consistent.

I have always wanted to be myself.

And there are certainly many more.

In all of these thoughts I have only succeeded in achieving to a degree, never fully attaining my perfect idea of any of them, yet still have something to show for them in the light of progress. I am quite thankful for the blessings of my progress in many of them. Regardless of how far away I am from my goal in each I still do benefit from the pursuit itself, as well as the sometimes negligible improvement in any of them in my life.

Most of these take a high level of focus and determination for me to achieve, yet, there they are in my mind... something I would like to be. It is easy to be discouraged about many of them... even more so against the basis of comparison to others. But that is merely a pitfall to be avoided as often as it arises.

So, as I sit in contemplation of the coming year I ask myself a question. What will set this year apart from the rest?

I already know much of the answer lies in the specific direction I am headed at the beginning. It is a plan to become something better, which is not a new plan at all, but this year it is already set apart by the fact that I have carried some momentum into it from last year.

I usually don't bother to make any distinction in the time of a new passing and beginning year but this year I am making an exception.

The one resolution I have this year is to not wait until next new year to make more resolutions. Progress needs to happen regularly and without procrastination! This is a true fact that I so often brush aside, and my hope is that my resolution this year will help me eventually squelch that poor "I'll do it tomorrow" misconception.

I think it should make for a fun challenge.

Thanks for listening/reading/contemplating with me. Y'all deserve a medal.