Monday, April 2, 2012

Transfer completed!

I have finally finished taking all of my blog posts from the first site I used to blog on over to this one.  I used to be a somewhat regular blogger but only had about 60ish total posts to transfer.  That said it still took up to about five minutes per entry depending on how long the entry was and if I found it interesting to read when I was transferring it.  I have certainly changed a lot over the last seven years!

I used to be very opposed to the use of sarcasm in general practice(ever the idealist seeking perfect communication I guess) despite its potential for good quality, even light-hearted humor.  I used to write in a more raw, sort of spontaneous way... which I think seems more interesting to read than the stuff I write now even though it is somewhat more difficult to understand.  I used to write at all different times of the day(which I tried a little bit yesterday but am not too sure how well that will work out until I improve my sleeping habits.)  I think I took the time to express some of my poetic ideas more back then than I do now.  I would like to do that more often again.  And I'm fairly certain I had much better topics of exploration back then.  Some of it comes from the fact that I would usually only blog about once every three or four weeks and naturally there is much more experience and thinking time to draw on.  My current daily commitment has a different sort of value now, though, so I shouldn't complain.

One of the things which has not changed much is my desire to become a better person.  I seem pretty bent on it back then and I certainly still recognize my need for it now.  I still seem to put the more fragile, emotional part of myself out there like I used to.  I do recognize the strength I gain from such expression... though, having done it for years I was not sure I could recognize that strength until having reviewed these entries throughout this transfer process.

I have said this before but I think it bears repeating: I have quite enjoyed taking the time to review these old blog posts of mine.  I honestly think I have a better understanding of myself which I find somewhat empowering and motivational.  It gives me hope for all kinds of reasons.  Especially hope that I actually can become the kind of person I think He wants me to be.  I know I am a very slow mover when compared to the normal social standards(who seriously waits this long to make any serious attempts to start a family?) but I also know that His standards have nothing to do with social standards and He knows where my heart is.

I am just glad to feel like He is in my corner despite my stupid mistakes and failed attempts.  I guess that's another thing that I feel has not changed much over the years(even though I totally thought it was different back then.)

Oh, and before I forget, general conference was most excellent today!  I missed a lot of the sessions but what I got to see/hear/feel was most excellent!  I look forward to hearing them on mp3 for the next six months.

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