Ungrateful and self-centered.

I think I have pushed myself far to much into "me" mode over the last decade or so when it comes to holiday giving. What I mean by this is the simple fact that I rarely buy gifts for anybody for Christmas and I generally cite it as a financial burden I can not afford. I have also cited it as a personal aversion to the commercialization of the holiday, which I do feel somewhat justified in, though the other idea, that I would prefer to make the gifts I give, is really the greatest reason for the lack of giving that I tend to exhibit.

This year, because I am still struggling to recover with my financial obligations after having lost my job in the summer, I could have been much more aware of the time commitments necessary to create some good gifts for the important people in my life and actually been much a much more giving individual. I have failed tremendously in this endeavor, sadly, and am only really noticing this too late to produce anything substantial in time for the holiday time frame. Good thing the holidays are not the only time I can offer a gift to those I care about.

So... I need to get on the ball. Make it happen. Give much more of myself than I have grown accustomed to giving. Become a better, more charitable me.