Sleep: the ever elusive.

I wonder if I am subconsciously rebellious toward sleep? It seems that I tend to sabotage my own efforts to regulate my sleeping patterns almost every single day. Like I kind of stumble around from one waking moment to the next in a daze, basically incapable of any positive course correction. I know, of course, that it isn't technically impossible but it seems pretty confusing to me why I would still be having such a challenge overcoming it despite all the challenges it begets by its very nature.