Learning from your friends.

I am grateful for the opportunity to interact with such delightful and inspiring people.  Today was filled with lots of aha moments, whether during class, socializing, eating food, playing games, or watching television.  It may sound like I soaked in a books worth of excellent information today, which in a literal sense might be true, but it was really more like a decent-sized informational pamphlet worth of stuff.  Maybe I can share a bit of the good stuff today.

Will, and desire, and commitment, and action are all very similar concepts, if even synonymous in some ways.  It is interesting to recognize the idea that we do the things we desire the most, regardless of the external influences we are faced by.  I know all of this sounds very obvious but the deeper meanings of it are rooted in the exactness and consistency of the statement.  How do I put this to good use?

It might be a good idea for me to give some plasma for money tomorrow.  I have never done it before but it seems pretty legitimate.  Getting rid of my car for a decent little sum of money will be difficult enough.

I am sometimes quite inept at verbally describing the more complex thoughts in my head, especially when they are not fully solidified into sentences in my head prior to attempting to describe those thoughts.  Even describing it in my writing here is somewhat difficult, even if a bit more forgiving than the spoken word, and I am not even describing the more complex thoughts at the moment... just the complex challenges of expressing them.

My physical attraction to women is sometimes very difficult to see past.  It makes me wonder what sort of value it has in the process of trying to find a wife?  I often feel it gets in the way of things more than inspires any positive progress therein.  Though, and not really the same sort of issue, I tend to let age become more of an issue than anything else lately.  Maybe it's my pride, or some sort of twisted fear, but I have so much less attraction to the girls closer to my age that it can be a little depressing sometimes.  They all seem to be looking for something more than I appear to be.  Too many complexities for me to handle most of the time.

In a related topic, I think I must be attractive to girls in ways that I am not intending, or am even really aware of.  In different ways I tend to think that I am somewhat intimidating to many women.  I think some of it just naturally comes from the fact that I have a semi-intellectual, fairly strong personality, which is not a bad thing in actuality.  I think it just makes me people feel like they can not relate to me very well, or that I am attracted to/looking for that sort of person myself.  Admittedly, it is an attractive thing but certainly not required by any means.  I am attracted to many different types of personalities.

I really like mandarin orange jello salad.

Sometimes the silence of a classrooms seeming non-participation is really just a sign of respect and thoughtfulness.  I often find it to be an excellent time for ponder and meditation.

Much of this is not actually new but more of a good refresher on a few of the basic, semi-important things of life.  I am already way past my efficiency of recollection for the day so I know there are a lot of things that I am totally missing.  Probably a few fairly poignant, thought-provoking things even.  But I guess the time for that is presently gone so I think I will delve into something else at the moment.  I have a bit of writing that needs doing still, so here is a little free-writing.  Not the most creative, clever, or even useful sort of writing to read but I think it benefits what I might create in the future.

5 Minutes Countdown(blank minded):

There are few things left in the life of an insect when it comes a'crashin' into the windshield of a car and if I am to give it a specific thought to describe it I might call it somewhat bland.  If there are a few things that need doing at the end of the day I think I might now be the one to do them.  I like making somewhat important sounding statements that don't actually have any audio quality to them.  If a basketball and a soccer ball are friends what sorts of games do they play?  I need to be more focused on typing forward and less focused on backspacing or correcting my typing when it comes to replacement of whole words.  The weather is a fierce foe when the winter seems to wander in.  I really enjoy doing things that are difficult, in spite of the lacking quality or variation of my writing when I do.  I have a lot of lacking energy at the moment.  In a world where green apples and yellow saucers have a place in the heavens of a highly organized numbering system the threads of disharmony melt and the milk of human kindness rains... yes, like drop falling from a cloud.

209 words later...

That actually went by much quicker than I expected it to.  I know the feeling of time gets distorted when the mind is in rapid-fire mode but this felt exceptionally out of time for me.  I guess I will look forward to the challenge of doing it again in the future.  Plus, I will see if I can produce greater quantity next time.