Blinded by beauty.

It is not very often that I meet a girl that spins me in one direction or another. I guess it is just the way of the bachelor life for me(which is not something I am particularly happy about), and I have certainly had quite a bit of momentum building up over the years, essentially moving in my own direction more than anything else. Lately I met a girl that actually knocked me a little off course, though, and even though I don't get the sense she is particularly impressed by me she has exhibited some very rare kindnesses(in her own unique way) toward me nonetheless. That, combined with her natural and very impressive beauty, is why I suppose my recent spinning has occurred.

Now I am sure 'spin', or 'spinning', probably seems like a vague and somewhat non-descriptive term so I think I will explain it a little bit more for clarity. I also expect that by attempting to explain what may seem vague to others I might find a little more clarity on the topic for myself as well.

Basically, I find myself enjoying this person's company way more than normal. I find myself thinking about her in a curious-to-understand-her sort of way several times throughout the day(maybe several is not exactly accurate). I look forward to seeing her in person with a reasonably high level of anticipation. I even think it's fun to talk about her anonymously in this blog post. Ha. But, despite all of this, I don't actually feel like I have any feelings for her... I am just very attracted to her. I very easily could have feelings for her at some point in the future. I would likely have to get to know her better, to get a better sense of who she really is, and to get a clearer idea how unique she is in my life(pretty much there already). But this is all just speculation. My feelings are quite unpredictable to me, generally speaking, even though they are usually quite slow moving. Last time I had feelings for anybody they were quite unexpected altogether so I really don't have a very good track record of understanding when and where they will strike!

In any case, the presence of a girl has caused this blog entry to be far longer than is normal for me lately. I guess that means something.