As recently as a week ago I felt that this moment was soon coming. Yet having some preparation for the challenge of losing a beloved friend does little to take away the emotional sting of her passing.
It is the sadness that you will not again enjoy her presence in this life. A sorrow for the things you would have done for her had you been stronger, or less preoccupied, or more diligent. It is the feeling of your heart going out to her loved ones who are also struggling with the loss of their shining soul. It is the pain of knowing the world has lost one of its great actively positive influences... the effects of which do still continue, but are much harder to see, and are more difficult to understand.
I suppose most of this just might be a selfish sort of pain. And even though I did not do much with her outside of the church setting, I did make a solid personal connection with her that I will miss dearly. She treated me like I was a brother... sharing with me a most cherished and Christ-like example of a sister. Despite my general displacement among our peers she did not seem to see it one bit... and in fact portrayed the contrary. She reminded me who I should be, and could be, and all simply through her manner and the way she treated me.
I have to say this is all very difficult to write. It has been a while since I have shed a tear while composing my thoughts for an entry here. I know I am not the only one who has ridden the rough path of emotions today, though, and I know it is important to write down whatever thoughts and feelings I can while they are alive in me now... because memory is a fickle, failing frailty which alone should not be trusted to recall such important life events.
The date of the funeral has not been set yet but I expect that day will have its own set of challenges which may find their way into yet another of my entries here. Until then I suppose things will eventually find their typical path of life and all that goes with it.
Sister Nicole Divis, may you rest in peace, free from the cares of this mortal test, onward to the work of our Father beyond the veil, in happiness and love. You will be missed greatly!
In memoriam: Nicole Divis - 7/31/1993(?) to 2/17/13
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