Infused positivity.

I don't want to be a "Negative Ned" about all the challenges I have been going through lately.  I have been reviewing some of my posts over the last couple months and it practically looks like I have nothing else on my mind other than "wo is me" whenever my heart gets a little squeezed.  I am sure it is a natural thing for anybody to do when they have these sorts of feelings but turning them on their head and finding the silver lining is usually my method of attack so I would like to get back to that.  Now certainly there is a positive benefit to be gained by expelling the negative feelings through writing so I don't think what I have done is anything to regret, but I really want to be more of a positive light than a negative shadow... because who wants to read about my pains?(other than me. ha)

So... Let's try it this way.

I feel the pangs of heartfelt sorrow right now.  It is more for the challenges that my dad are going through but there is still a bit of the sadness of girl estrangement as well.  My dad make a specific request for me to come be with him(which is pretty much the opposite of the girl thing. ha) which puts my heart in overdrive when I consider when I might be able to go visit him again... which probably won't be until Thursday morning.  I know he is in good hands, though, and I have to trust the Lord is at the helm of it all.  That does make it a little easier overall... but still the heart struggles.

I like a good joke at pretty much all times of the day.  I really like the sound of laughter(at least when it is audible above my own obnoxious laughing) and even thinking about does bring a nice lightness and warmth to my heart.  Looking forward to the warmth of my bed also fits that thought chain quite nicely.  Ahh... to rest again.  Good times!