The days before me.

They are certainly something different than the days behind me. I guess it is all a matter of perspective, though, as this is obviously not anything revelatory or profound. I feel like it is the middle point of some greater change in life nonetheless. And looking forward is usually more interesting than looking backward.

Super busy is actually fun.

I do not remember the last time I had a work shift that was as busy as today's was. I did a wide variety of things and did them nearly non-stop from beginning to end. It was a very fulfilling shift, needless to say, and I hope I get to enjoy more like it in the future. It is probably more of a timing thing since the end of the term is coming up as next week is finals week but I might get lucky at other times too. Good times!

Still getting things done.

I pretty much got all the footage I need for my final projects now and look forward to editing the crumb out of 'em. It was a long, semi-arduous day but the high level of productivity was right on for my tastes. Tomorrow looks to be another fine follow up if I am diligent as planned.

Rad people make life radder.

And it is likely also true that red people make life redder... but that is not really the point I am intending to make.

Today has been a unqualified great day. This is the case because of the people in my life that have enhanced it through their kindness, their examples, and their overall general awesomeness. I am quite blessed for having them in my life!

Continuous Rush.

Even though I am doing better at getting to bed earlier, and am thusly far more lucid than is normal for me during the writing of these entries, I feel the certain need for sleep and tend to prioritize it over the potential quality I might contribute to my thoughts here. This is probably not a surprise in some respects. I should probably start thinking of this even earlier in the evening to make full use of my thoughts in the future.

Super tough.

I have to say that a hard grading teacher is definitely something good for me. I am humbled every time I get a paper back full of red ink, like the blood of my soul has escaped from my meager work onto the skin of the paper. Learning through the failures is a most instructive thing indeed.

Actually doing it.

I am quite glad to be going to bed this early for once! I think it has been quite a while since I last went to bed before midnight. What a sad thing it is that I actually can not remember when that actually happened last. It probably says something about me in a way I probably should not appreciate. Ha.

It is a nice way to start the week off, however, and I intend to make the best out of this one. I have a lot of work ahead of me but I am quite up for the challenge.

Back in action.

I have to apologize for my brief vacation of posting here over the last four or so days. I was without internet, as I have been housesitting and neglected to get the network password, and could not make any posts because of it.

Today I rode a bike for about thirty-two miles, from Tukwila to Pike's Place Market and back, and found it to be a thoroughly enjoyable activity in almost every way. It felt like a nostalgic trip from my history in several ways as well as reminded me of my poor fitness level over the last year or two. I think I will feel even more of those reminders over the next couple or so days. Fun!

I could write more about the last several days but there has not been much worth writing about in my generally unenergized state of being... gotta be smarter about doing all this stuff when I am mentally more present... as if that is anything new!

Tired like a rock... might be tired.

If I anthropomorphize a rock, it only seems appropriate to make it seem lazy. I am also lazy, as indicated by my title, and will now be crashing into my bed full force. Yeah.

The joys of performance.

We had a pretty fun gig tonight. The audience was quite small, numbering roughly six or so people(excluding the employees of the venue), but they were a fun crew nonetheless. And even though it may seem somewhat a somewhat dismal situation in general, I am quite glad to see the lead man of my band happy to put on whatever show we could muster up anyway. This makes performance for the sake of performance a highly pleasant thing to experience.

This makes me more optimistic about the future of the band, which I was already quite optimistic about in the first place. I need to practice more and more and more to help make it all happen!

Learning how to do cool things.

There are many, many things one can learn which can change life in dramatically useful ways. Learning to use tools of just about any kind are some of those exceptionally useful ways and I always like the empowering feeling of finding new tools. Life just gets better every time this happens.

I guess I will leave it at that for now, since it is entirely way too late for me to be awake... as usual. Ha. Good times.

A burgeoning disc golf career.

Although, to call it a career might sound like I plan on making money with the sport, when, in fact, I have no intention of anything like that. It looks to be a lengthy, fun journey nonetheless.

One thing for sure is the fact that the next time I decide to purchase a disc I need to be smarter about the color of the disc. The first one I got is a dark red which basically disappears when the sun is starting to go down. Next time I will get a neon one.

It is a fun sport. You should go try it sometime if you have not done so already. Good times will be had!

What are the effects of sleep deprivation?

I pose the question because, even though I have ample experience in the mire of said circumstance, it does not mean I am properly qualified to identify everything that is happening to me. Especially since, as senses and thinking becomes impaired by such, it becomes more difficult to actually recognize many of the changes. Beyond the general haze which infiltrates the brain I tend to think some semi-serious sorts of things are happening that should probably be paid attention to.

Tonight I will actually get nearly eight hours of sleep since I do not have to leave for work until about 12:20pm or so tomorrow. This is an exciting prospect. I hope to take full advantage of it.

Learning to read.

It is probably a somewhat strange thing that I am terrible at reading books. It has been this way my entire life and, despite my meager efforts to improve the situation, I have increased my book reading capabilities very little. It is quite a frustrating thing to deal with. This is most true when I need to read something for school(or some other endeavor of importance).

Now, because I have slacked on my reading it has cost me a full letter grade in one of my classes. Well, that is what I expect to happen anyway. How frustrating it is to know I could have done something different and better, but did not.

One might think that I am addicted to non-reading. How silly it is that I probably write more than I read.

A basic obligation.

I feel like it is important to point out why there are holes in my consistency about posting an entry daily here. There are pretty much just one of two possible reasons:

1. The internet was down long enough for me to not have time to wait for it to come back on.

2. I pulled an all-nighter and did not actually go to sleep that night(the much more common of these two reasons).

There is the very rare occasion that I simply forget to write before crashing out that night but that has only happened a handful of times over the last decade plus, so I do not really consider that a general reason for my misses.

This all paints a fairly clear picture of my poor sleeping habits and I hope I am able to get things under control soon, if for nothing else than my sanity.

The fallacy of memory and importance.

This is one of those times where I did actually remember that thing I wanted to remember when I was thinking about things earlier. It is often the case that I have a seemingly(and I would argue realistically) useful or important line of thought running around in my head that would be good to write about, yet, when the time comes for me to actually get anything down in writing, usually at some point much later in the day, I seem to be grasping at straws and am unable to reclaim that once important line of thought at all.(sorry for the long sentence) When this happens, I almost always hear the line, "well, if you can't remember it now, it probably wasn't that important to begin with," but I am now tending to think there is not any powerful logic to support that assumption. In fact, I tend to think that the important/useful thoughts are being lost to lack of immediacy every day because of the nature of life. Good/important/useful things are met with equal resistance to their level of importance, which would naturally lead to a greater challenge when trying to retain them since life wants them to just go away. I believe, now, that the most important thoughts of inspiration need to be recorded right away in order for them to reach their greatest level of efficiency and importance. Just figuring out how to do it is now the challenge I need to figure out.

That was a long paragraph. This is a very short one.

I guess there is always a lot of room for improvement in my theory here but I am glad it stuck around for me to repeat it tonight. I was thinking of it somewhere around five or so hours ago so I am glad it had a good shelf life today. I wonder if it kind of punches holes in this whole post in the first place? Ha.

The various duties of my job.

They are fairly broad and non-specific, which is actually the way my attention deficit-mind tends to like things. Variety keeps things interesting. I feel like I have a little freedom to stretch myself a little bit in areas I am not so knowledgeable in already. It is nice to feel like the job will allow you to grow.

Narcolepsy... kicking in...

I learned somewhere that it is possible to develop narcolepsy. I also learned that once one develops narcolepsy that there has not been a cure found for it and the victim will have it the rest of his or her life. I honestly feel that I have a very minor form of it, which is already somewhat annoying in its own right, but I think it could definitely get worse if I do not change my sleeping habits soon.

The bigger question, then, might be better addressed to my motivations. What is it that keeps me up to this crazy hour?

I think I will just let that question hang in the air for now. No external speculation at the moment.

Further into the scripting madness.

The further I go with the combat system I get to program the further my mind likes to race into the possibilites of what I might do with it. I would like to create something fun, innovative, and intuitive. A definite challenge for anybody making a game. I think I am up for that challenge.

Back to the grindstone.

I really know how to waste a perfectly good day. I am sure there are varying levels of this skill... and I tend to think I am somewhere in the upper percentile as far as my capability therein. It is a little depressing but I think it can be something that might come in handy as well.

Either way... the rest of the week kind of puts that all on hold. I have so many other things to be doing. I am glad to have a job to mix in with my schooling!

An actual holiday off.

I do not remember the last time I actually got the holiday off like everyone else does. Most of my jobs have worked extra hours on the holiday because it is a day people are more available, or are more involved with retail. Tomorrow will be something different for me.

Unfortunately I have not made any specific plans for awesome stuff to be going on... but I will enjoy sleeping in nonetheless.

Hiking up the hill.

It always takes us to new elevations. It is especially nice when the view is nearly limitless once we reach the top. It is important to be careful that we do not forget the beauty on the way up as well. All it takes is putting one foot ahead of the other, over and over again, with the will and determination despite all obstacles. The reward is definitely worth it as long as you are prepared to receive it.

Too many good things.

When I was asked what I was specifically going for, as it relates to my schooling and education goals, I had to give the response that I was not sure exactly. He assumed I was trying to focus on a specific thing that related to one of the clubs we were participating in at the time. It was a natural thing to assume since that is what we were both a part of at the time. It made me think a bit about all the different things I like doing, which are a part of the degree I am trying to obtain, and I enjoy doing so many different aspects of the learning curriculum that it leaves me a little unfocused as to my main goals with the program... other than directing... which sort of incorporates all of the elements.

I have a little less than two years left to figure all that stuff out. I guess that is not really a problem I have to deal with at the moment... though, I definitely need to avoid procrastinating the time I tackle it more directly.