Discovery through expression.

I was thinking about the ways I come to understand things about myself, especially as I try to understand what the ultimate motivating factor is behind any decision I make in life.  And, even though I have explored very similar ideas related to this topic before, I think much of what I was thinking about recently is actually a somewhat new concept to me, at least in to the degree that it has gained insightful meaning in my mind.  It is actually such a broad and deep topic that I think it will bear much more work than I am inclined produce in just one meager essay to describe it all. I think I will start tonight by just sort of laying out a thesis on my idea which will hopefully function somewhat as a launching point into connected branches of thinking which all build the same, original idea(which I'm sure is not really an original idea other than the fact that I can not claim it is based on anything specific I have heard or read before.)  I intend to do this in a more technical manner than I usually, or ever, have done in the past(not to please the scientific, scholarly, language, or relatedly expert crowd who ever might peruse my writings as much as it is a method which might reveal more of the essential truths with greater clarity than my usual shoot-from-the-hip method does.)

Wow... that was a long introductory paragraph.  This will be a very short paragraph which also denotes the presence of my typical self-aware style of writing... which I guess I will be including in this essay as well.

First, I will start with a description of the thought which acted as the seed to what I consider the main topic of this whole thing:  I was contemplating the way one improvises music, thinking about how one can, through the end result of any given musical piece/composition, begin to understand it's source as something expressed through thinking and conceptualization, or by means of related emotional feelings.  Music is a beautiful thing which can very elegantly mingle both expressed sources(thinking and feeling) into it's very nature almost seamlessly.  But, no matter how interwoven their sources, they can be determined to be either one, or the other, or both together.  I am not one to make bold, literal statements of hyperbole in general but I do believe that all music, and (as I will shortly state in my main thesis statement) literally everything else in life, can be boiled down to having its seeds of creation dominantly rooted in either thinking or feeling, with both always present to some degree.

Thus, my thesis alone: All actions are spawned from either thinking or feeling.

I am sure this seems like an obvious statement of meaning, indeed it seems like a simple concept at a casual glance even to me, but my mind has caught a hold of many deeper roots which come from this simple concept.

Indeed, I have already reached tonight's limit on my energy to express any of them in particular, but I am satisfied to have begun this little journey in my writing at all tonight.  It is a dauntingly large topic that I intend to expose as far as my mind can reach and I hope any who read this, and whatever I am able to muster in the time to come, might enjoy the journey that I have already started taking in my mind because of this concept(I bet I sound like a crazy person on drugs or something just making such a statement! ha)

And, PLEASE, if anybody EVER has any comments to offer I am ALWAYS interested to hear them.  I learn more by mixing in other people's ideas than I ever could all on my own.