Learning more about my attractions.

I am finally starting to get a grip on myself a little. It has taken a great deal of meditation and pondering to partially understand the way I work as I attempt to engage in the more meaningful relationships with the opposite sex. It makes me kind of wonder if that is really how the whole process is supposed to be and if it is something that is supposed to continue throughout one's whole life. It is kind of a newer concept to me, anyway, that important relationships with others might always include continued learning about one's self... especially in the context of one's commitment to another.