Sticking to some sort of guns.

I am quite glad for the opportunity which has been offered me at my current job. It is full of potential and shows promising possibility in the financial stability realm of things. As it isn't 'quite' what I would like financially, however, I was inclined to press for more money. When the moment came that I needed to make the decision to press or not, I actually chose to press. I am finally realizing that, despite my enthusiasm to actually do the work at just about any rate, I am often overlooking my actual needs almost completely. Yes, my financial needs are much higher than I generally let on, but my emotional needs are also effected by this in a way I did not much realize in the past. My level of self-respect is diminished when I don't ask for what I think my time is worth. I know I am a valuable addition to every project I am a part of. When that knowledge doesn't square with the return I am in cognitive dissonance about my own self-respect. What a pain in the face that is!